i wouldn't say i was close to him, but we weren't distant either. i saw him probably 5 to 6 times a year? but well family has always been close to my heart and it really aches to guess how my mum and my aunties are feeling right now. it also hurts to know that he wouldn't be around anymore and perhaps things would be a little different during family gatherings and especially during the chinese new year.
on the other hand moving on was probably his only choice to stop the pain that was so evident in his last days. i'm sure he's in a better place now. the past week or so he's been in hospital, i've only seen him once last night. and it was simply painful seeing him trying hard to breathe with the equipment and being unable to acknowledge our presence. i'm glad i was there to see him and address him for the last time.
i'm still unprepared for the loss of any close loved ones and i really hope none of that comes any day soon.
:: kiathy. 12:28 am [+] ::
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i can't believe i'm such a klutz but this morning i managed to hit my arm against the doorknob of my parents' room door. and it still hurts until now like okay i feel quite stupid cos the deep heat is really biting my skinnnnnnnnn urgh.
i know i don't look like it (i don't. really.) but i'm really infamous at home for knocking my toes into the table just walking past it or like banging my head against the car door when i'm opening the door to get in. and the worst things happen when i'm alone and i just scream at myself.
today is gonna be my last samba prac in nearly 2 mths. urghhhhh.
:: kiathy. 1:02 am [+] ::
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:: Tuesday, March 07, 2006 ::
today i had a speaker in class from the EDB talking all about Germany's biotech industry during our class. Well since we're all going to Germany i guess it's all relevant but i think the one thing he really did was to leave an impression on me of chasing your passions/dreams/whatever.
as cliche as it might sound, he actually did it. starting out as a Mass Comms NTU graduate, he went on to take some computational biology Masters in the US of A. and he went on to work in biotech companies and now he's with EDB. like what a path man. his mantra was, don't let your undergraduate course restrict you from doing what you want to do. and if you wanna go into biotech, jolly well know it and learn it.
well he also showed this.
how to turn from good to great? be in the middle.
this biotech talk has actually got me thinking. i mean i want to go into finance and banking and all as a career, but seriously, who the hell has a passion for investment banking?! i'm sure i don't. someday i'll carve out a career in music and the arts. not talented enough to be a performer? no sweats. do something else, but want to do, just do.