:: bachelor's notepad. ::

:: Sunday, October 31, 2004 ::

those were the days too.. 

Labels: Photos.

:: kiathy. 11:59 pm [+] ::
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those were the days.. 

Labels: Photos.

:: kiathy. 11:59 pm [+] ::
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to say that i'm facing my mortality now will be a tad too extreme. or alright it's many tad-s too extreme. there're many others that've gone thru far worse than what i'm gonna go thru tomorrow. i mean. a 1/2 hour surgery to cure a minor problem? pui. 6 weeks cast? pui. 2 mths of rehab? pui. there must have been thousands of people that've gone thru worse.

but yet i must say i'm afraid. namely for a number of reasons.
reason #1: i fear not waking up.
reason #2: i fear losing the leg.
reason #3: i fear the pain/hassle of not having my left leg for up to 2 months.
reason #4: I FREAKING FEAR THE IV.

i simply do not enjoy anything foreign on my body, much less IN it. so to say that IV is nothing is really bullshit to my hum ji ears. and well although the reasons above might be kinda morbid and paranoid, they're still valid enough to fear yea.

so it is this sunday that i do really have feelings for what's coming up tomorrow. i haven't thought about it for the past 6 weeks or so since i've confirmed the surgery, and for a good analogy for me it's just like my examination preparations. i'll mug and mug and mug without any mere thought of what awaits me at the end of the mugging. it's always on the day of the paper that i see the exam script right in front of me and i go 'oh bummer!'. that's simply what i'm feeling now.

and anyway i'm going to have to fast. but it's from 3 am. i'll definitely be asleep.

oo this is so exciting.

but anyway ANYBODY is welcome to visit me at home after i'm discharged on tuesday. well it's tuesday if i don't develop a fever anyway. i'll be home alot with my potato chips around me. + my pillow/blanket/toothbrush cos i'm not intending to move my ass anywhere except to shit. i'm on this massive weight gain programme i signed up for with SGH. gain 10 kg in the next 2 months or your money back!

aiy aiy aiy. :|.

:: kiathy. 10:06 pm [+] ::
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de-lovely.

nice little show. the love linda porter showered on her husband, cole porter, was like, woah. considering he's homosexual, i seriously can't see how love can bring u so far as to accept yr husband sleeps around with other men outside and not with you every night.

:: kiathy. 9:54 pm [+] ::
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Title: a boyband song

Verse
E
i know it was so true,
B
that i can't look at you.
C#m
can't bring myself to hide,
A
the feeling deep inside.

i know it was so true,
but i can't say to you.
the words that sound so right
yet just not for tonight

Chorus/Bridge
C#m
oh what has the sun got to say
A
if i took the moon away
C#m
oh what am i to do
A
if the same falls upon me too

Verse
i wished that i could fall
so deeply in love with you
hoping it was all
you needed from me too

you smiled you grinned you laughed
as if i were the one
and here i am for you
yet embrace me you would not do

Chorus/Bridge
C#m
oh what has the sun got to say
A
if i took the moon away
C#m
oh what am i to do
A
now that the same falls upon me too

:: kiathy. 1:12 am [+] ::
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reasons
for me to write this tune
no sex no drugs no booze
just clean good ol' you.

:: kiathy. 1:01 am [+] ::
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hello my friends. lets have a gathering this weekend. really. can we go out before my op?!

:: kiathy. 11:07 pm [+] ::
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alright i'm still in camp. it's 6 pm. this is sucky. well i'm here cos some guys r supposed to be fogging the area and i'm here to get fogged too. nah they're fogging the whole camp cos there've been 2 dengue cases this week. but it's kinda dumb..

they just fogged the area next to mine. and so all those mosquitos are now flying around visibly around my block. and the foggers don't seem to be coming anytime soon. in no time i guess i'll be getting bitten. isn't this suidical?!

ok so this post shall be in chrono order.

yesterday i was roaming borders alone looking out for books to occupy me during my long term lay-off. sounds kinda like retrenchment but no i'll still get paid the princely sum of $560 per month, before deductions for organisations i'm funding unknowingly, like the Singapore Armed Forces Sports Association which i have NO PART TO PLAY AT. oh well the saf's a bitch.

but anyway, i just realised that hey the books there are all..about death. and crime. and thrillers. and death again. it seems like all/most of the bestselling books are about crimes and someone trying to kill someone else and there's always a conspiracy involved. so what happened to books like curious incident of the dog in the night time? okay i guess that book has mega influenced what i want to read. i wanna read another book just like that! no deaths. ok only the dog died. but it's just plain good entertainment without any agents, guns or conspiracy theories.

take for example, the da vinci code by dan brown. alright yea i loved the book it's cool. but who's involved? police. guns. yadayadayada.
and so all other dan brown books are in the same vein. true there's always some mystery there. but what do they involve too? agents. guns. police. sigh.

and we go on to..tom clancy. what's it involve? rainbow six, cia, fbi, and whatever top spy agencies u can find. that's what put me off his books cos it was just war and guns and fighting all the way.

nah i'm not becoming a wuss and starting to read the joy luck club or guides to shopping. but seriously it's kinda limited. i like john grisham though.

any good recommendations for entertaining books without death? no inspiration ones please i'm too easily inspired and too quickly deflated. makes me a good conductor of inspiration i guess.

oh p.s. there's this fab version of the da vinci code just released, it's an illustrated book. like u can see the places as dan brown describes it in the book. awesome!

:: kiathy. 5:59 pm [+] ::
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arsenal? they lost at old trafford.

oh yea. and old trafford's manchester united's home ground.

:: kiathy. 1:07 am [+] ::
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well another week's over. just about a month ago i thought 'hey 4 weeks to my operation that's kinda soon.' but honestly? it hasn't been very soon. it's still nearly a week to go.

well there's this check up tomorrow to prepare for my op. probably to see whether my body can take the drugs they're feeding into my blood stream.

but well it's a very minor op. and i really should be posting this next sunday instead. alright so next sunday it shall be.

:: kiathy. 5:25 pm [+] ::
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extracts from my conversation on msn with keeming aka xiaoming..

aye sky captain! : ME.
Countdown :6 hours to the BIG game ! - xiaoming.

aye sky captain! says:
WHO'RE U DATING!
Countdown :6 hours to the BIG game ! says:
ah zhan
Countdown :6 hours to the BIG game ! says:
hahahahah
Countdown :6 hours to the BIG game ! says:
i heard u all keep teasing her sia tat tim when she ask can play soccer or not
Countdown :6 hours to the BIG game ! says:
u all win liao lor
Countdown :6 hours to the BIG game ! says:
in the end she dont dare to come
aye sky captain! says:
u want her to coem i ask her next week lor
aye sky captain! says:
haha
Countdown :6 hours to the BIG game ! says:
hahahh can can
Countdown :6 hours to the BIG game ! says:
she can be keeper
aye sky captain! says:
haha okayy
aye sky captain! says:
i'll pass this msg to her

oh mandy..hahaha.

:: kiathy. 5:07 pm [+] ::
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What a mouthful! A devotee to the Chinese shrine of Jui Tui in Phuket, Thailand, has his face pierced with kitchen knives, as part of the annual Vegetarian Festival on Wednesday. The nine-day festival begins on the first evening of the ninth lunar month. Devotees pierce their bodies in order to shift evil spirits from others onto themselves. -- AP
 

:: kiathy. 3:45 am [+] ::
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WAH KAO.

:: kiathy. 7:31 pm [+] ::
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amusing lines from the land of irc.

i'm too bored lah.

1. hi any guys here wif cam and looking for help, pls msg me... i am a male here.. army guys and students welcome

2. any gals want to go swimming tonight at bukit timah at 7pm or 8pm plz msg me now thanks..................................................


3. anyone wan to chat? i mean anyone. No discriminations

4. any gals wanna chat if u are bored u can find shinobi man..

:: kiathy. 4:50 pm [+] ::
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How to make a wei kiat

Ingredients: 5 parts pride 1 part self-sufficiency 3 parts leadership

Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Serve with a slice of curiosity and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Username:

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

:: kiathy. 4:05 pm [+] ::
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here i am. online and reading blogs. most of which aren't updated. and going to vc's forum hoping for some updates for me to read. and feeling really bored. i'm simply not entertained by television. and i don't read at home, only the newspapers.

well i eat alot though. i'm preparing potato salad actually.

oh bummers. in another week and a half. i guess i'll crumble.

:: kiathy. 3:27 pm [+] ::
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and here's a debate which has been going on for a long time..

spee or spy?

if happy is pronounced as such, happee. then shouldn't spy be pronounced as spee?

however, we could work it out the other way around. if spy is pronounced as 'spy' as in the normal way, lets name it 'spai'. then won't happy be pronounced as happai. which sounds absolutely british and absolutely correct. oh i'm so chuffed i'm not a yob.

so is this spee or spai or happee or happai now.

:: kiathy. 8:42 am [+] ::
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alright alrightttttttttt. it's like. monday now. and it's monday 8.37 am oct 18 2004. blogger has this 'change time & date' thing below this box. why'd i wanna change the time and date. maybe to create alibis when i commit some bad thing like a crime.

so anyway since reading my friend ahtong's blog, i feel inspired to write about my saturday too. but then there's just a problem. our saturdays were kinda parallel to each other!

so this i shall say. the vjc open house was quite a letdown in terms of crowd, can't comment much on others since i wasn't there early. and YES i didn't do mass dance damn proud of myself. i simply gave up after realising that it sucked to sweat under the hot hot sun. ;O.

:: kiathy. 8:36 am [+] ::
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i figured out something today. as in i finally put it into words.

i've realised that what works for me, in my mind, works for others. and thus the converse is true. what does not work for me, does not work for others.

but that's MY personal opinion. so here's an example i told my friend ahtong today.

what does not work for me. liking someone i don't deem attractive.
what i think will not work for others will thus be 'liking someone that isn't attractive, i.e. ME, '

and i simply cannot accept the fact that that might not be true.

i think i have a psychological problem.

:: kiathy. 8:45 pm [+] ::
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now! 

:: kiathy. 10:06 pm [+] ::
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now..4 mths back. 

:: kiathy. 9:44 pm [+] ::
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back then..

GUESS WHO?! hahahahaha.

:: kiathy. 9:32 pm [+] ::
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ok got ALTERNATIVE plan for saturday!

play soccer from 11 to 1 then go vj. haha.

:: kiathy. 9:13 am [+] ::
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oh ya. programme for this saturday!

at 10+ am. ok early 10 odd am, we will head down to east coast park to rollerblade.

after that we shall head for lunch. maybe some tung lok buffet at east coast.

by 1.30 we shall reach vjc for the vjc open house.

fun filled activities for the day.

healthy people will join us at 10 am for some exercise (especially after rice table on friday).

lazy people will join us at around 12 pm for lunch.

lazy but diet-conscious will join us at vjc at 1.30

total lazy bums and people who hate me will ignore this post.

:: kiathy. 3:57 am [+] ::
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i wonder how much of my life i've lost by taking in 2nd-hand smoke.

but i don't understand. as in i've never asked smokers this stupid question but the problem with 2nd hand smoke for US is that we take it in and dun exhale it. but how come smokers get to smoke and exhale? and thus produce this 2nd hand smoke for us. hmm. food for thought!

and honestly. i guess one can't really quantify (is there such a term) that 2nd hand smoke shortens yr life. cos in the first place, you never know how long yr life expectancy is. yadayada an avg person will live till blahblah. but that average person might not be you. it simply baffles me when chain smokers (those ah peks) can live till 80 while we wail and curse smoking when someone who smokes dies at maybe 40? and look at dennis foo mr devil's bar. i bet he has enough 2nd hand smoke in him to fill up his pub, and yet he's still alive. and i figure he's rather old. well he looks rather old anyway. maybe 50 odd or 60 rite. so will he drop dead and die soon? we'll never know until we find out!

oh on a lighter note. i saw cassandra see just now. and this other actress who's much prettier than her. they left in her mercedes slk. vroom vroom. 3 girls and 2 ang moh guys. orgy time perhaps.

:: kiathy. 3:50 am [+] ::
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i'd like to change my blog address to fatkiat.blogspot.com

but i haven't figured out how to do it properly. as in i wanna leave this place intact and end it with this post here, and migrate everything here to fatkiat.blogspot.com and continue from there. how huh how how how.

obviously i can just rename this blog fatkiat.blogspot.com but then orangecow.blogspot.com would then cease to exist at all. and copying and pasting the template over doesn't work either. sucky.

orangecow is simply too androgynous and, may i admit it, childish.

:: kiathy. 9:06 am [+] ::
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well on initial thoughts i wanted to begin like this.

'been so busy lately that i've forgotten to count down to x'mas.' well but that's simply wishful thinking on my part, cos i really haven't been busy at all. i just caught a dumb show yesterday though. the ladykiller. it starred tom hanks, which i guess was the saving grace of the movie, even though he had a really bad snigger that went *heh heh heh heh heh heh* as though he's having an asthma attack. now i wouldn't know how someone sounds when he gets an asthma attack because i simply haven't seen anyone have an asthma attack before. and i don't suffer from it either. but i guess describing his snigger as an asthma attack is the most apt description of tom hanks' sniggering as if asthmatic.

well here i am trying to be smartypants and going round and round in circles again. but you know, i read this book on this autistic kid. 'curious incident of the dog in the night-time' was the title. and i simply loved it. so short so simple yet so interesting i devoured it in an hour odd. well it's simply about a boy who's autistic who decides to investigate a killing of his neighbour's dog. which died in the night-time. as though it was the biggest thing in the world. well but i guess it was the biggest thing in HIS world. and so the book went on and on, written in a first-person(?) narrative. i.e. he wrote the book. and since he's supposed to be autistic the book rambles on and on sometimes without making any sense. and that's what i'm trying to do now. well take a read on the book and you'll understand. it's really interesting. better yet. i'll lend you the book and you'll borrow it from me and you'll understand.

autism
n.
A psychiatric disorder of childhood characterized by marked deficits in communication and social interaction, preoccupation with fantasy, language impairment, and abnormal behavior, such as repetitive acts and excessive attachment to certain objects. It is usually associated with intellectual impairment.

okay that was a pretty long-overdue review of a book that i like. and so we go back to the ladykiller. the ladykiller is simply a show about robbers which looked like it was gonna end an hour and fifteen mins into the show. but it didn't end there and it ended up in a comical ending. well i guess there must have been a deeper meaning to it when ALL the robbers died in the end. like maybe. it doesn't pay to be bad. i guess. so preachy huh.

and so we go back to the christmas countdown thing. as i mentioned, i'd like to say that i'll be busy enough not to bother about x'mas. but the fact is i'm not busy, and i do remember x'mas. i actually dreamt about it last night. i dreamt we were all having a christmas dinner with this weird logcake. it was pineapple log cake or something and someone was enjoying it alot when i mentioned that 'hey this sucks what kind of crappy log cake is a PINEAPPLE log cake!' well the problem is i don't know whether it was pineapple, just substitute pineapple with whatever quirky fruits you think should not be made into a log cake. and so the person who was eagerly awaiting the pineapple log cake gave a sour face and got rather unhappy. so to salvage the situation i blurted out 'it's ok well there's durian log cake too! with all the spikes and everything!' like my god i actually thought durian log cakes existed. ok i don't know what i'm talking about now.

but yes. i did dream of christmas. and doing some manual counting now, christmas day is.. 73 days away. wow that's a pretty long time isn't it. so christmas isn't really coming, and the geese aren't really getting fat.

on the other hand, i have 18 days to my surgery. oh bummer.

:: kiathy. 8:43 am [+] ::
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often in life there're many things you think about. but what takes priority anyway? whatever takes priority in your life should be what you blog about.

however, i simply want to blog about about anything and everything, but i'm experiencing some sort of writer's block whenever i see this template thing. and i guess it has nothing to do with the fact that i have nothing to blog about. i guess the purpose of having a blog was to let the world know of yr existance and yr thoughts. but here i am caught in a catch-22. i'd like to air my thoughts, but some of them i don't want the world to know. but if i dun air my thoughts, i simply have nothing to blog about.

one solution is to have a private blog. but that defeats the purpose of it all isn't it. blogging is an exhibitionist(ic?) thing. you blog because you want others to read your blog. well that's what happens personally. so it's a mighty contradiction. in the end i lament to maybe one or 2 individuals instead. and maybe that makes me feel better. but sometimes lamenting to individuals don't work cos such individuals are involved in whatever thoughts you dun want to air to the world. and so we're caught in yet another situation. and the solution is to seek other individuals to lament to. but that'd make me seem like a major whiner.

i guess i already am.

:: kiathy. 10:38 pm [+] ::
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my current new favourite.



Gravity



performed by Embrace

written by Chris Martin - Coldplay :)



honey,

it's been a long time coming,

and i can't stop now

such a long time running,

and i can't stop now

do you hear my heart beating?

can you hear that sound?

'cause i can't help thinking

that i don't look down



and then i looked up at the sun

and i could see

oh, the way that gravity turns for you and me

and then i looked up at the sky

and saw the sun

and the way that gravity turns on everyone

on everyone



baby,

it's been a long time waiting,

such a long, long time

and i can't stop smiling,

oh i can't stop now

do you hear my heart beating?

do you hear that sound?

'cause i can't stop crying

and i won't look down



and then i looked up at the sun

and i could see

oh, the way that gravity turns on you and me

and then i looked up at the sun

and saw the sky

and the way that gravity pulls on you and i

on you and i

:: kiathy. 8:35 pm [+] ::
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ok blogger's really getting assholic!!

:: kiathy. 8:47 am [+] ::
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test test testing post.

lets have another bbq at my place my friends!

:: kiathy. 11:41 pm [+] ::
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oh yea.
like. 26 more days to my surgery.
5 mths 15 days to ord.
more importantly, 2 mths 21 days to christmas.

with about 10 weeks of mc beginning on 1st nov, i'll be growing fat. very fat. but swimming seems to have helped. 30/40 lengths per day is working! or so i think. maybe simply getting tanned can help hide fats. that's the logic with wearing black to look slim too right.

:: kiathy. 11:16 pm [+] ::
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blogger is a bitch. i just blogged about how mandy's name came about and it didn't publish my blog cos of errors errors and more errors.

bitch.

:: kiathy. 11:16 pm [+] ::
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ok this is it. my 1000th posting on my humble blog.

yea right as if anyone ever bothers to count.

this blog posting is dedicated to mandy mo. cos i seriously need to clarify how she got her name. obviously her parents named her mandy mo, but we only uncovered this deep dark secret some afternoon when my partner-in-drowning/ee-dee-ot gerald and i and mandy were out walking. we simply had a walk to remember, cos mandy's leg was beginning to hurt after such a long walk, so we dubbed our walk a walk to remember. and hey a walk to remember (the movie, idiot.) featured mandy moore. so that's how ingeniously mandy was born.

well about the mo in mandy mo. she simply keeps mo-ing herself and then she introduced herself as 'hey i'm mo, mandy mo' someday. and then it stuck.

this is quite a stupid story so don't bother to comment or read it!!

:: kiathy. 11:16 pm [+] ::
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hello my friends. sorry to all whom i've pissed off the past week/weeks. maybe it's just pms but yea i've been irritating everybody including myself. but i'm happy now so i won't piss anyone off anymore.. really!

so ya accept my apologies everybody!

:: kiathy. 2:24 am [+] ::
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i'm so bored at home after thronging the streets alone looking for a quicksilver tee i wanted to buy. alas all the surf shops along orchard road didn't have it, so i guess the only piece left is at flash and splash at citylink. and i didn't buy the tee then cos it was the last piece and the collar was a little koyak. guess i might have to return there.

oh well i'm so bored at home. friday nights are meant for partying but for various reasons i'm now at home and lazy to go out anymore, not that there's been any plans for the past half hour that my ass has been stuck to the ground here. i'm sleepy and tired but i wanna go out. sigh.

:: kiathy. 9:17 pm [+] ::
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