:: bachelor's notepad. ::

:: Sunday, June 29, 2003 ::

an acquaintance won this mega talent search thing just now. like woah. she's gonna be famous. but she's just an acquaintance so i won't be able to bask in anything by being a good friend of an almost-famous person.
anyway.

i can't believe how obsessed my older relatives are with lottery. just now i was out in an auntie's house for some gathering cos it was my grandpa's birthday, and 2 dogs entered the house. as in strangers' dogs. and so they were like 'wah never buy 2929 for 4d', which means two dogs two dogs in cantonese or something. like. everything they do, lottery will be a part of life. and i really hoped that the number appeared as first prize. then can laugh like hell over their obsession cos they'll then be making alot of noise over why they didn't buy it etc etc. quite amusing really.

:: kiathy. 11:02 pm [+] ::
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charlie's angels: full throttle was such a blast. i keep thinking of it as a mega big mtv cos it has music all over, and cool kind of filming and such. and it was brainless. that was the fun part too cos they had like super duper cool stunts pulled off which are impossible in real life. the fact that they didn't try to make them look too real really helped prevent the audience from going 'so fake'
ok i don't really know what i'm blabbering on about now. due to my lack of sleep, i can't really think and express myself. and due to my lack of sleep, there's nothing much i'm thinking about anyway.
my friend just got flashed at on an mrt train today. what is the world coming to. on an mrt train you flash to a young girl and wank? such bastards. what pleasure do they derive huh. to all flashers of the world. f off lah.

:: kiathy. 12:26 am [+] ::
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okay so i'm supposed to update my blog.
today i went to club at embassy at the esplanade. it's supposed to be really swanky and cool and class. i tell you. it's bull. it sucked. it was a university's sci faculty bash. i can't say the people contributed to the suckiness, but maybe it was a minor factor. the music sucked. that was it. it was all big beats and almost nothing else. maybe i'm just unappreciative. so in the end we blew about 25 bucks each at the club and went off to have supper. what a night. tomorrow my parents will laugh at me cos i was saying like how late i'd be back and everything. and yet this night turned out sucky. so urgh. but it's okay. :).

so something else happened that made me sad. but yea. it's just me. sigh.

anyway. prayers for the footballer marc-vivien foe. who just collapsed during a football match and died. as read, his heart just stopped. kinda scary. and the other players were kinda traumatised and depressed. this is when everyone feels for everyone else. it's a good world. this is world peace man.

:: kiathy. 2:42 am [+] ::
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i think this is kinda lame. and most of the time it'd not find a place on my blog. not that my blog is uber funky or what. but i'm just in this easily entertained mood now. i wanna laugh. yup. so here goes. might regret it later though.

THE HUSBAND SHOPPING CENTER!!
Recently a "Husband Shopping Center" opened in Dallas, where women
could go to choose a husband from among many men.
It was laid out in five floors, with the men increasing in positive
attributes as you ascended.
The only rule was, once you opened the door to any floor, you HAD
to choose a man from that floor; If you went up a floor, you couldn't go back
down except to leave the place, never to return.
A couple of girlfriends went to the shopping center to find some husbands...
First floor
The door had a sign saying, "These men have jobs and love kids."
The women read the sign and said, "Well, that's better than not having a job,
or not loving kids, but I wonder what's further up?" So up they went.
Second floor
The sign read, "These men have high paying jobs, love kids, and are
extremely good looking." Hmmm, said the ladies. But, I wonder
what's further up?
Third floor
This sign read, "These men have high paying jobs, are extremely
good looking, love kids and help with the housework." Wow! Said the
women. Very tempting, BUT, there's more further up! And up they went.
Fourth floor
This door had a sign saying "These men have high paying jobs, love
kids, are extremely go od looking, help with the housework, and have a strong
romantic streak." Oh, mercy me. But just think! What must be awaiting us
further on!
So up to the fifth floor they went.
Fifth floor
The sign on that door said, "This floor is empty and exists only to
prove that women are impossible to please. Goodbye."

:: kiathy. 7:18 pm [+] ::
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self reminder.

:: kiathy. 11:43 pm [+] ::
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Eternity - Robbie Williams


Close your eyes so you don't feel them
They don't need to see you cry
I can't promise I will heal you
But if you want to I will try
To sing this summer serenade
The past is done we've been betrayed It's true
Some might say the truth will out
But I believe without a doubt in you

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity

For eternity

Yesterday when we were walking
You talked about your ma and dad
What they did that made you happy
What they did that made you sad
We sat and watched the sun go down
Then picked a star before we lost the moon
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone too soon

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity

For eternity

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I hope you find your freedom


Eventually

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I know you'll find your freedom
Eventually

For eternity

:: kiathy. 11:37 pm [+] ::
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hello world. knock knock. i'm a walking contradiction here.
hohoho. do people really rise to great heights only to get knocked down from their perch sooner or later? i think they do. nobody stays on top forever. do they? i know i don't.
but anyway. i've just been told today that my blog makes me seem suicidal. which is totally amusing to me cos i fear death. i fear leaving everybody behind and not having a chance to like be with them anymore. and i totally fear anyone leaving me behind. crumble crumble. :).

:: kiathy. 11:08 pm [+] ::
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:: kiathy. 8:27 pm [+] ::
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check this out.
clickme.

:: kiathy. 8:22 pm [+] ::
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hmm. i think the point here is. what if i like someone who's christian/catholic. everyone knows i'm not converting. how. that's it man.
anyway i'm back into civilisation. although i'm now a serving national service as a clerk and not as a fighting fit soldier(cos i'm not fighting fit anymore(cos of an injury)), i still had to go outfield to help out in stores. so i spent 4 nights on this wonderful island on the east of the mainland in this shitass building which didn't have beds/fans/electricity except when we used the generator. it didn't even have clean water. the water was 'not fit for drinking'. but we used it to bathe anyway. though the other guy was saying something quite logical about brushing teeth. like 'since the water's not clean anyway why're we using it to clean ourselves?' smartass. laziness sure breeds brains. i still brushed my teeth anyway.
i think this time it's a major regret. i've had so much time to think and ponder, that i regret. i realise it's when i don't have time to ponder over a decision that will allow me to forget bout that decision because everything else - the consequences - of the decision flows in quickly and the consequences of the consequences follow up. right now. the consequence of the decision has not been drowned by the consequences it will create just yet. that's why i regret. i hate the army.
but well i'm a happy man. the only unhappy part of me currently is the above paragraph. please do not mistake me for an angst filled teenager with nothing to do but hate the government. i am pro-govt. seriously.
thanks to the anoymous post. but i think it's spelt anonymous. but anyway thank alot for dropping by though u're prob someone i know and you just don't want me to know u're actually reading a pathetic guy's pathetic blog. yup.
and yea i don't get mad at the blog. duh. what do i get mad at. few things. right? :).

:: kiathy. 8:08 pm [+] ::
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would you like me to get a birthday present?
i think that's one of the questions i've asked many people many times. maybe not in such nice english, but it's always somewhat along that line. and most of the time it's a very nice 'no' or a very enthusiastic yes. yesterday was the second time i've been to a church wedding and probably the 3rd time i've been to a church. yes seriously it's that pathetic a number. but it's cos i'm not a christian/catholic. yupyup. :). the wedding was a long one and it ended up with alot of food served at the buffet which we tried to clear but failed miserably. anyway to not sound like a hungry piece of shit, i think i enjoyed the wedding alot. like woah my teacher was getting married and getting carried away literally by her husband and getting kissed and everything. it's the humane side of the teacher you see at events like this, not that she wasn't very human/nice to us in school, but it's quite cool to see like yup christine's normal too. oops.
but the church wedding set me thinking.. what if the couple had differing religions? the church going one would want to go to a church, and alot of prayers etc which the non church going one would not understand or found weird. would things turn sour? food for thought.

:: kiathy. 3:12 pm [+] ::
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i can't stop frowning. dono why. it's getting real bad. maybe it's due to the lack of sleep and the fact that i'm tired, so my forehead's feeling kinda tensed up all the time, so i frown to try to relax it somewhat. but i'm beginning to frown alot. going to be something reflex and a new weird habit will form. nah no way. i'm quitting it. sleep will help!
and yes my blog was lame. i was lame. i am lame.

:: kiathy. 12:02 am [+] ::
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hihi. desk duty today. i've realised today, actually everyday, that i've not come to terms with it. and it refers to everything. oh i sound so elusive nowadays! but nah things are actually quite simple. i messed up my life. but actually my life is not really in a mess. it's my mind that's messing with itself which makes me think i'm messed up/have messed up my life. sounds like the matrix huh. mind over matter. i don't mind cos you don't matter. heard that from benjy a long time ago. i still remember. i always remember stupid things that nobody does.

:: kiathy. 12:00 am [+] ::
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this was my blog.

:: kiathy. 10:44 pm [+] ::
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one month of inactivity. five kg gained. WHAT?!

:: kiathy. 10:27 pm [+] ::
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You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.


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hahaha.

:: kiathy. 4:07 pm [+] ::
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oh i just bought a new book! the life of pi. this book that's been top of the bestseller's list for weeks and weeks and weeks. i think i'm putting away tom clancy for awhile already. right now i can't really absorb whatever his novels mean. with the many many russian names thrown in. and it's also a bestseller on the charts for weeks. i'm a sucker for the mainstream.

:: kiathy. 3:56 pm [+] ::
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i'm back. first of june. first day of the sixth month of 2003. just a few more months to go and it's christmas. :). that's the season that i like the most, even more than the lunar/chinese new year. even more than our very own national day. even more than my birthday. it's not cos i'm christian. also not because i celebrate it actively or something, but there's just something better feeling about the period of time leading up to christmas. people seem nicer. it's gotta be the spirit of giving and sharing and caring in the air. and the streets are all lighted up and everything. feels good especially when it rains for a little while, wetting up the pavements while you trot along feeling a little cool, a little cold and very good. but its still about six, seven months to go. oh well.

just caught this show on hbo. philadelphia. it was about a lawyer who got fired by his firm because he had aids. or i think more specifically because he was gay, and he got aids through that. but they sort of sabotaged him by letting him flunk a big case right before they fired him, cos it's wrong to fire someone just cos he's gay/has aids. makes me wonder sometimes.. how come homosexuality is so linked to aids. as in why does it seem there's a bigger risk of getting aids especially with gays rather than just heterosexual people. it seems to go that 'if u're gay the chances of you getting aids by having gay sex is higher.' but why? i don't know why. anyway i'm not gay. and the ending was real sad. he won the case against the court with this black lawyer who refused to help him initially, but died - quite expected though but i'm a sucker for sad movies like this. not the romantic sad movies but this kind. and the great thing was his family and loved ones stood by him! cool. real life? difficult.

:: kiathy. 3:49 pm [+] ::
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